You might want to subscribe to Ancestor Hunger if the name makes intuitive sense to you. Other signs you may enjoy this newsletter include:
you’re always telling old family stories
you have a pile of photos of or letters from ancestors you didn’t know
you’ve spent hours (“hours” being a stand-in for a much longer length of time you’re uncomfortable acknowledging) combing through the 1870 census
you often find yourself pondering how your grandparents’ talents and foibles reverberate through your family
your ancestors did bad things, maybe even monstrous things, and you aren’t sure how to reckon with that history, what responsibility you have for it
your ancestors endured traumas that you don’t know how to stop feeling trapped or defined by
you did a DNA spit test and found missing parts of your family, but don’t know what to do now
you did a DNA spit test and are berating yourself for giving all your genetic information to a for-profit corporation
you worry about a history of mental illness in your family and what it means for you and your children (including whether you should have children)
you have more than a passing familiarity with the debate over whether multigenerational transmission of epigenetic changes can happen in humans
you increasingly feel some spiritual pull toward your ancestors, and you’re not sure what that means or what to do with it
you’re a writer or an artist of some other kind and you keep returning to themes in your work that seem connected to your family
you’re interested in understanding why other people are obsessed with researching their ancestors
you enjoy reading about other people’s messy families
you’ve sorted through these kinds of feelings and questions in your own family and have thoughts you’d like to share with me
I’ve been writing a book about ancestors for six years and writing about my own ancestors and my complicated relationship to their legacies for much longer.
Years ago, I told my friend Lizzie Skurnick that I needed to stop wasting time writing nonfiction about my family and looking up my ancestors on Ancestry.com because I needed to finish my important work: the novel I was writing. “Your family is your work,” she said. I was annoyed! But she was right.
Writing the book — which will be published by Random House in 2022 — has been an opportunity to read and think and feel widely about my ancestors and everyone’s ancestors, about why we are drawn to them and what they mean for us.
The book is its own thing. These newsletters are some of my notes and thinking and experiences around the edges.
“Give it a look, and see if your dreams don’t get a bit messed up.” — Darrell Reimer, Whisky Prajer
“Subscribe for religious and other beautiful things.” — Kate McKean, literary agent and writer
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